Freshman Year (Second Semester)

I’m gonna be a sophomore. Now I’m hanging out in the 07 freshmen group. Like last year, the freshmen are eagerly asking some very naive questions, and university life is still a very fresh thing in their eyes.

• What are the dorms like? What kind of clubs are there? What’s the grading system like? What sports can we participate in? Food, sleep, everything is covered. I used to be like that too. The freshmen are all full of enthusiasm, wanting to achieve great things. I used to be like that too. But how many people can really persist? I wanted to tell them a lot, to share my own views. But is it necessary? Maybe I should let them explore on their own. The first year of university isn’t just about a few textbooks, a few successful or unsuccessful events, or a few important or unimportant exams. It’s a process of exploring and planning one’s life and future. After going through this year, I’ve grown a lot. This year, I’ve experienced the excitement of entering university, the confusion that followed, setbacks in relationships, struggles to adapt to university life, and abnormal exam results. One setback after another, I’ve been constantly adjusting myself, laughing as I face the next day. At that time, I was most afraid of quieting down and thinking, because the future was a blur to me, and the so-called “past” wasn’t beautiful either.

I dreamed of becoming a chemist, constructing complex organic equations in my mind But when I came to university, they told me that engineering doesn’t involve chemistry. I dreamed of becoming a biologist, exploring the secrets of life in a laboratory But when I came to university, they told me that engineering doesn’t involve biology. So I had to give up chemistry and biology - my strongest subjects

A friend asked me, “Are you feeling confused?” Yes, everything has to be built from scratch, so I lack confidence, which makes me feel confused. But I still took it one step at a time, and although I didn’t do as well as I imagined, I found my goal and can say that I’ve successfully “transformed”. Of course, maybe my current goal will seem childish in the future. But it has given me direction. And through my efforts, I’ve gradually built up my confidence in this subject through my grades and learning.

Next year will be a year of accumulation. Without the confusion, I’ll be able to move forward faster.

After four years, what kind of “me” will I become?